So no, I do not have any kind of multiple personality syndrome. But when you have a chronic pain condition it can feel like it. When I have bad flares like I have been this week it feels like I can become a total different person, well actually a few different.
First there is whiny, needy Amanda. That's the Amanda that stays in bed all day with a heating pad crying in pain. I don't wont to move or lift a finger for myself. I whine to get everything I want; juice, snacks, meds.. you name it. She is a total baby, which I hate cuz I would like to think of myself as an independent woman.
Second is bitch Amanda. When I am in pain, but not enough to bring out the baby side. I get angry about everything and take everything people say to me and twist it into an insult. I remember once my boyfriend offered to bring me my meds and water to bed so I could rest. I snapped at him yelling that I wasn't a baby and I didn't need him to treat me like a child. This is my personality that gets me into trouble with people. Many times this side of me has come out at work and I have gotten into fights with coworkers over dumb stuff.
There is also "only person in the world" Amanda. This one is hard to explain to people who don't experience chronic conditions. Though i'm sure anyone has some reason to feel weird. But when you have a medical condition that no one believes in its very easy to feel alone in the world. There are times when I'm in pain and no one around me seems to understand or they just seem to ignore it. That's when I shut down, I become a closed off person. I've recently locked myself our 1 bathroom for 3 hours in the dark.
So I am starting to pass out, I am on some strong medication as we are trying to get a group of cysts to strink (major ouch).
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First there is whiny, needy Amanda. That's the Amanda that stays in bed all day with a heating pad crying in pain. I don't wont to move or lift a finger for myself. I whine to get everything I want; juice, snacks, meds.. you name it. She is a total baby, which I hate cuz I would like to think of myself as an independent woman.
Second is bitch Amanda. When I am in pain, but not enough to bring out the baby side. I get angry about everything and take everything people say to me and twist it into an insult. I remember once my boyfriend offered to bring me my meds and water to bed so I could rest. I snapped at him yelling that I wasn't a baby and I didn't need him to treat me like a child. This is my personality that gets me into trouble with people. Many times this side of me has come out at work and I have gotten into fights with coworkers over dumb stuff.
There is also "only person in the world" Amanda. This one is hard to explain to people who don't experience chronic conditions. Though i'm sure anyone has some reason to feel weird. But when you have a medical condition that no one believes in its very easy to feel alone in the world. There are times when I'm in pain and no one around me seems to understand or they just seem to ignore it. That's when I shut down, I become a closed off person. I've recently locked myself our 1 bathroom for 3 hours in the dark.
So I am starting to pass out, I am on some strong medication as we are trying to get a group of cysts to strink (major ouch).
Feel free to follow me on:
Instagram: _amandalouisexo
Twitter: @mandiip93
And the contact tab above is a great and easy way to get in touch with me :) I love having an email buddy