HEY EVERYONE. I KNOW I HAVEN'T BEEN AROUND FOR A WHILE AND I'M SORRY, SO MUCH HAS BEEN GOING ON SO HERE IS MY UPDATE!
I AM OFFICIALLY BACK TO WORK PART TIME. I'M WORKING A COUPLE DAYS A WEEK AS A RECEPTIONIST AT A CAR DEALERSHIP WHICH IS GREAT. ITS NICE TO BE EARNING MY OWN MONEY AGAIN. AND I'M SUPER HAPPY THIS PLACE ISN'T TOO STRICT ABOUT CLOTHES SO I'VE BEEN ABLE TO WORK IN NICE SWEAT PANTS.
IN OTHER NEWS ANDREW (MY BOYFRIEND) AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY MOVED INTO A MUCH BIGGER PLACE. IT TOOK US A WHOLE MONTH TO MAKE THE MOVE BUT IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT. MY FAMILY HELPED US A LOT AND ANDREW WAS SUPER PATIENT WITH ME AS ALWAYS ABOUT HOW LITTLE I COULD REALLY LIFT. BUT THIS NEW PLACE IS AWESOME AND HAS A LOT MORE SPACE FOR US AND ILL EVEN HAVE MY OWN LITTLE SPACE TO DO YOGA AND SUCH ONCE WE'VE UNPACKED AND SUCH.
ON THE MEDICAL SIDE OF THINGS, MY FAMILY DOCTOR IS FINALLY BACK FROM HER MATERNITY LEAVE. MISSED HER LIKE CRAZY! SHE MADE SURE TO SEE ME THE FIRST DAY SHE WAS BACK AND EVEN SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT BEFORE READING MY FILE FROM WHEN SHE WAS AWAY TO CATCH UP. SO WASN’T TOO HAPPY ABOUT HOW HIGH OF THE SLOW RELEASE PAIN MEDS I HAD BEEN ON BUT WAS PROUD OF HOW HARD I WORKED TO COMPLETELY GET OFF THEM. ALTHOUGH SHE WAS HAPPY WITH THAT SHE WASN’T HAPPY ABOUT HOW MANY OF THE FAST ACTING HYDROMORPHONE HER REPLACEMENT HAD BEEN LETTING ME HAVE (98 EVERY 2 WEEKS OF THE 2MGS) SO SHE PUT ME BACK ON THE LOWEST DOSE OF THE SLOW RELEASE (3MGS) TWICE A DAY AND LIMITS MY FAST ACTING ONES TO 60 EVERY 2 WEEKS. I'M NOT GOING TO LIE I REALLY THINK ITS HELPING AS I AM DOING WELL WITH NOT NEEDING TOO MANY FAST ACTING PILLS, I'VE EVEN GONE A FEW DAYS WITHOUT NEEDING ANY. THE ONLY DOWNSIDE IS SOME DAYS WHEN I SLEEP TOO LONG AND MISS MY MORNING DOSE I START GETTING WITHDRAWALS INSTANTLY. SHE WAS ALSO VERY CONCERNED ABOUT MY MOOD CHANGES. SHE ASKED A LOT OF QUESTIONS ABOUT MY MOTIVATION AND AMBITIONS AND MY DAILY ACTIVITIES AND RELATIONSHIPS, AND CAME TO THE CONSULTATION THAT I HAVE MILD-CHRONIC DEPRESSION AND AN ANXIETY DISORDER. I WILL HAVE TO WAIT TO SEE THE SOCIAL WORKERS AT HER PRACTICE NEXT WEEK TO GET A FORMAL DIAGNOSES AND SHE SENT A REFERRAL FOR A THERAPIST THAT SPECIALISES IN CHRONIC PAIN SO I'M WAITING ON THAT APPOINTMENT. BUT SHE PRINTED OUT A FEW QUIZZES FOR ME TO ANSWER FOR HER ABOUT MY MENTAL HEALTH AND GAVE ME SOME ANTIDEPRESSANTS (MYAN-BUPROPION XL 150MG) TO START ON. SHE SAID THEY SHOULD BOOST MY MOOD AND ENERGY. BUT ILL TELL YOU THE FIRST FEW DAYS WERE HELL! I HAD THIS HORRIBLE MIGRAINE ALL THE TIME AND COULD NOT GET OUT OF BED. I WAS CONSTANTLY ON THE VERGE OF CRYING AND TIRED. AFTER THE FIRST 3 DAYS I WOULD GET JITTERY AFTER TAKING IT AND THEN MY MOOD WOULD CRASH COME 9 PM. BUT I'M A WEEK INTO THEM NOW AND I THINK THEY ARE HELPING.
I KNOW THEY ARE HELPING BECAUSE LAST NIGHT I WENT OUT WITH ONE OF MY GIRLFRIENDS, IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAVEN'T CANCELLED PLANS WITH SOMEONE IN MONTHS. I USUALLY HATE GOING OUT WITHOUT ANDREW BECAUSE HE CAN PICK UP ON MY BODY LANGUAGE WHEN I'VE HAD TOO MUCH OR I NEED MEDS OR THAT I'M READY TO GO HOME, AND HE ALWAYS MAKE THE EXCUSE FOR US TO LEAVE SO I DON’T HAVE TO. BUT LAST NIGHT I GOT ALL DONE UP, DID MY HAIR AND MAKEUP AND I EVEN SQUEEZED INTO SOME JEANS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OVER A YEAR! WE WENT TO A PAINT NITE AND THEN WENT OUT FOR A COUPLE DRINKS, ANDREW PLAYED OUR UBER DRIVER FOR THE NIGHT. I'M HURTING A LITTLE TODAY BUT HEY THAT’S WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU MIX ENDO AND ALCOHOL.
SO ANY OF MY ENDOSISTERS OR LONG TIME READERS WILL KNOW ITS MARCH WHICH MEANS ENDOAWARENESS MONTH!! YAY!!! SO THIS MONTH I AM GOING TO REALLY TRY TO POST SOMETHING EVERY DAY, EITHER AN UPDATE OR MYTHS ABOUT ENDO. IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS YOU'D LIKE ANSWERED POST THEM OF EVEN SEND ME AN EMAIL THROUGH THE CONTACT ME TAB! AND ILL ANSWER IT ON HERE!
TOMORROW WILL BE AN UPDATE AS I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT IN TORONTO WITH MY ENDO SPECIALIST TO TALK ABOUT ANOTHER SURGERY AS ITS BEEN 2 YEARS AND MY PAIN IS GETTING WORSE.
SO UNTIL TOMORROW..
TODAY MY SCALE NUMBER IS A 6
check out my snapchat for to the minute updates on me @mandylucy
I AM OFFICIALLY BACK TO WORK PART TIME. I'M WORKING A COUPLE DAYS A WEEK AS A RECEPTIONIST AT A CAR DEALERSHIP WHICH IS GREAT. ITS NICE TO BE EARNING MY OWN MONEY AGAIN. AND I'M SUPER HAPPY THIS PLACE ISN'T TOO STRICT ABOUT CLOTHES SO I'VE BEEN ABLE TO WORK IN NICE SWEAT PANTS.
IN OTHER NEWS ANDREW (MY BOYFRIEND) AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY MOVED INTO A MUCH BIGGER PLACE. IT TOOK US A WHOLE MONTH TO MAKE THE MOVE BUT IT WAS TOTALLY WORTH IT. MY FAMILY HELPED US A LOT AND ANDREW WAS SUPER PATIENT WITH ME AS ALWAYS ABOUT HOW LITTLE I COULD REALLY LIFT. BUT THIS NEW PLACE IS AWESOME AND HAS A LOT MORE SPACE FOR US AND ILL EVEN HAVE MY OWN LITTLE SPACE TO DO YOGA AND SUCH ONCE WE'VE UNPACKED AND SUCH.
ON THE MEDICAL SIDE OF THINGS, MY FAMILY DOCTOR IS FINALLY BACK FROM HER MATERNITY LEAVE. MISSED HER LIKE CRAZY! SHE MADE SURE TO SEE ME THE FIRST DAY SHE WAS BACK AND EVEN SPENT THE WHOLE NIGHT BEFORE READING MY FILE FROM WHEN SHE WAS AWAY TO CATCH UP. SO WASN’T TOO HAPPY ABOUT HOW HIGH OF THE SLOW RELEASE PAIN MEDS I HAD BEEN ON BUT WAS PROUD OF HOW HARD I WORKED TO COMPLETELY GET OFF THEM. ALTHOUGH SHE WAS HAPPY WITH THAT SHE WASN’T HAPPY ABOUT HOW MANY OF THE FAST ACTING HYDROMORPHONE HER REPLACEMENT HAD BEEN LETTING ME HAVE (98 EVERY 2 WEEKS OF THE 2MGS) SO SHE PUT ME BACK ON THE LOWEST DOSE OF THE SLOW RELEASE (3MGS) TWICE A DAY AND LIMITS MY FAST ACTING ONES TO 60 EVERY 2 WEEKS. I'M NOT GOING TO LIE I REALLY THINK ITS HELPING AS I AM DOING WELL WITH NOT NEEDING TOO MANY FAST ACTING PILLS, I'VE EVEN GONE A FEW DAYS WITHOUT NEEDING ANY. THE ONLY DOWNSIDE IS SOME DAYS WHEN I SLEEP TOO LONG AND MISS MY MORNING DOSE I START GETTING WITHDRAWALS INSTANTLY. SHE WAS ALSO VERY CONCERNED ABOUT MY MOOD CHANGES. SHE ASKED A LOT OF QUESTIONS ABOUT MY MOTIVATION AND AMBITIONS AND MY DAILY ACTIVITIES AND RELATIONSHIPS, AND CAME TO THE CONSULTATION THAT I HAVE MILD-CHRONIC DEPRESSION AND AN ANXIETY DISORDER. I WILL HAVE TO WAIT TO SEE THE SOCIAL WORKERS AT HER PRACTICE NEXT WEEK TO GET A FORMAL DIAGNOSES AND SHE SENT A REFERRAL FOR A THERAPIST THAT SPECIALISES IN CHRONIC PAIN SO I'M WAITING ON THAT APPOINTMENT. BUT SHE PRINTED OUT A FEW QUIZZES FOR ME TO ANSWER FOR HER ABOUT MY MENTAL HEALTH AND GAVE ME SOME ANTIDEPRESSANTS (MYAN-BUPROPION XL 150MG) TO START ON. SHE SAID THEY SHOULD BOOST MY MOOD AND ENERGY. BUT ILL TELL YOU THE FIRST FEW DAYS WERE HELL! I HAD THIS HORRIBLE MIGRAINE ALL THE TIME AND COULD NOT GET OUT OF BED. I WAS CONSTANTLY ON THE VERGE OF CRYING AND TIRED. AFTER THE FIRST 3 DAYS I WOULD GET JITTERY AFTER TAKING IT AND THEN MY MOOD WOULD CRASH COME 9 PM. BUT I'M A WEEK INTO THEM NOW AND I THINK THEY ARE HELPING.
I KNOW THEY ARE HELPING BECAUSE LAST NIGHT I WENT OUT WITH ONE OF MY GIRLFRIENDS, IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAVEN'T CANCELLED PLANS WITH SOMEONE IN MONTHS. I USUALLY HATE GOING OUT WITHOUT ANDREW BECAUSE HE CAN PICK UP ON MY BODY LANGUAGE WHEN I'VE HAD TOO MUCH OR I NEED MEDS OR THAT I'M READY TO GO HOME, AND HE ALWAYS MAKE THE EXCUSE FOR US TO LEAVE SO I DON’T HAVE TO. BUT LAST NIGHT I GOT ALL DONE UP, DID MY HAIR AND MAKEUP AND I EVEN SQUEEZED INTO SOME JEANS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN OVER A YEAR! WE WENT TO A PAINT NITE AND THEN WENT OUT FOR A COUPLE DRINKS, ANDREW PLAYED OUR UBER DRIVER FOR THE NIGHT. I'M HURTING A LITTLE TODAY BUT HEY THAT’S WHAT YOU GET WHEN YOU MIX ENDO AND ALCOHOL.
SO ANY OF MY ENDOSISTERS OR LONG TIME READERS WILL KNOW ITS MARCH WHICH MEANS ENDOAWARENESS MONTH!! YAY!!! SO THIS MONTH I AM GOING TO REALLY TRY TO POST SOMETHING EVERY DAY, EITHER AN UPDATE OR MYTHS ABOUT ENDO. IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS YOU'D LIKE ANSWERED POST THEM OF EVEN SEND ME AN EMAIL THROUGH THE CONTACT ME TAB! AND ILL ANSWER IT ON HERE!
TOMORROW WILL BE AN UPDATE AS I HAVE AN APPOINTMENT IN TORONTO WITH MY ENDO SPECIALIST TO TALK ABOUT ANOTHER SURGERY AS ITS BEEN 2 YEARS AND MY PAIN IS GETTING WORSE.
SO UNTIL TOMORROW..
TODAY MY SCALE NUMBER IS A 6
check out my snapchat for to the minute updates on me @mandylucy